Psychoeducation

Effective psychoeducation.helps build resilience

Faith in Jesus

为什么你信耶稣？
只因为他爱我。

The way God sees us

He sees us all the same. With the same affection, with equal beauty though we might not yet have learnt the beauty of some beyond human's eyes. Hence, we thought, that even God views each individual differently, according to what they are capable of. But, is our just God like that? Hence, even more so, it should be we place our views on people on God, but ought to place God's view of people on us. #Godisjust.

Love

Love is sometimes going beyond your own needs, that's why it is called love

Heaven

This is what I look forward to. A place where all our hearts are pure, all pur acts are free, all our love are genuine and real. Looking forward to enjoy the purity and holiness in the presence of God.

Memory

有些记忆即使十年了，还是那么。犹新。

Worth

There is no reason to let others decide what you are worth.

Psych

Psychology is never meant to change one's mind but to expand one's horizon.

爱情的爱

爱情的爱是什么。
好像到了现在，就是一种就算吵架也不会感到不安的那一种。
好像小小地领悟到为什么每次吵架，他们都会很快地没事。
只因为那份安全感告诉他们。别 浪。费。时。间。

Mental health

An insight from the study of 1Kings 1~3

想象

原本跟随的是一种相像，
后来追寻的是一种感觉。

God's grace

It is by God's grace that I had a good day :)

999 days

?Today I got angry with dad. Because I was worried for him. That he would injure his leg further. Somehow I felt like I am like my parents who get angry and frustrated because their kids r doing stupid things that could so possibly hurt themselves.

I felt so guilty for shouting at him even though it was brief but quickly learn that I am forgiven by my dad. Soon after, we were normal once again. That's family I think. No matter how we step on each others toes we forgive. Because we love the other person, we are willing to bear the cost and forgive, even when the other person might not even apologize. We forgive because we love and we hope that the person would realize and come back to us for reconciliation. I realize, by not coming back, by living out of guilt is not what the family member desire the most. But the reconciliation and the acceptance of the forgiveness that has been readily given is what they truly desire.

It is a tiny glimpse indeed of the heavenly Father's heart.

I might be frustrated at times. Annoyed and what not at other times, but I know I do love my family somewhere deep inside me.

Ps we have dated for 999days! :)

Prayer

I post this on facebook today, saying that,

Whatever happens in life, God's promises remain.

And tonight, my dad, mum and I prayed together for the first time. :')

I was reminded of God's promise that He will save my family. :')

Thank you God! <3

Love

Good company

Sometimes all it takes is company. Quality time with ah  is better than quantity time :)

Honesty and God

Tonight, got to be honest and express my gratitude to people whom I call friends. :)

Relax

Good try :)

今天的心情

共同点

新和旧的回忆有个共同点，它们都过去了。

责任感

当我们小学时得知上中学要用钢笔写字而不再用铅笔时，这好像是我们学习'责任'这回事的第一堂课。

就像用钢笔写字，我们在人生中所写下的每个决定，都不可再轻易地删除。学习承担每个决定的后果，正是'责任'这辈子给我们最宝贵的考验。

回忆

回忆有时候好可怕。。。

For this is a new beginning

Phillipians 3:12-14 not that I have alrd obtained all this, or have alrd arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thin I do: forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. #lovealwaysperseveres

Quenching the thirst

Today I learn that true acceptance don't come from people, nor humans, but comes from God. Only when u learn about Gods acceptance, u will always feel the emptiness in your heart. #quenchthethirstofloneliness

'twas a good good night

心事

今天我跟mummy聊我事多年前的心事，感觉很好。很开心。感谢主的恩典。

Being grateful for my past

I am thankful that in the past...

1. Because of the mistakes I made, I learnt more and more about what true love is

2. That Forgiveness is not free and it cost stg and therefore I have learnt to not take mercy for granted

3. I have learnt to not take anyone for granted. Every single person who cross patched in your life matters and thank God for them.

4. For because of the shame I constantly experience and the condemnation that keeps trying to drag me down in life, I am growing to learn about His wonderful mercy and how sticking to His promises can liberate me from all these. 

5. Because of this shame that I was feeling, I learnt my true identity

6. It wasn't easy to face and going to face people from my past whom I might have hurt before or might have been there when I was going through the ugly period. This taught me courage to face my life and not just my past. 

7. It takes guts it takes courage and facing my past is a courage and guy building activity

8. Just like what Paul said: Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Philippians 3:12

机场

身在机场。我发现能够坐着这样观察不同的人，事，物的感觉我很喜欢。 :-)

Heart of a servant

For the past week, i realize that how dreadful i feel just on the thought of serving others, i engaged in dreadfness, felt tired, just simply on the thought of serving God serving my family, serving people around me. I complaint in my little mind that why am i the one to have to do this? Why do i have to bear these burdens? Little did i know at that time that my heart attitude was skewed.
It's almost like in a sudden instant, that i realize that i lost the joy of serving.
I wondered why.. And finally i learnt that it is out of my selfish heart that i dont want to serve. I feel lazy, i feel tired, i engage in self-pitiness, i feel uncomfortable, and allow myself to drown in the blackhole of emotions. All these just to escape ththe hardwork, the uncomfortable feeling of serving others. 'I just want to serve myself' that's clearly what i am trying to say.
After being convicted of my own laziness and selfishness, i repented and asked God to remind me of my identity and of His character.
And sure enough, God graciously reminded me of who He is and who I am in Him. I forgot that He is a good good God, i forgot that He is a good good Father. I forgot that i was made out of love and i am dearly loved. I forgot that i am free from sin and i no longer have to be a slave to sin. Yet out of convenience, out of comfort, i chose to revert to my old ways. Just like the Israelites, after coming out from egypt, they forgot of God's greatness and how God heard them when they cry out to God for deliverence. Memories often put a magic spell on itself. Mayb its to protect us from further harm, mayb its just the way it is. But sometimes and many times, we often forget the pain that we once went through during those seasons of life. And hence we reminisce and wish that we can go back to the past, especially when we are going through even the slightest suffering at that time..
And so.. I realize how selfish i have been and how blessed i was.. How dwelling in self pitiness become my escape yet not realizing it is eating me alive..
I forgot about the hope i have, i forgot about the love i have got, i forgot how much better and liberated one can be by living in the light and not the dark. So, i hope and pray, that i will continue to live in the light and live courageously, remembering God's greatness of the past the present and holding hope for the future. I am with hope, i am loved and tremendously blessed. Be content and cherish what you have. :)

today is a happy happy day!

Home

Little did I know, Adelaide has become my second home.. I am home but i miss my other home.. I miss Adelaide :( 

Born Haters

English Standard Version
1John 3:15 Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him.

Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer. 

So true. Since young, I have been involved in the pool of hatred that exists in life. In families, among friends, and even among strangers, such is the world that we are living. I was told that I am bad, I was of no good, and all I can think of is my weaknesses and there is nothing good in me. So, I started my life like this, as someone who was born to be hated. Someone who is pure bad and someone who can only try as hard as possible to make oneself likable in order not to drown in life. My survival mode was on. 

High school bullying was one signifcant moment where I was hurt deeply. I didnt know the term passive aggressive, nor did I know I was being bullied. Yet now, even when I know about it, I dislike being associated as a victim of it because like it or not, I have learnt to be the bully myself even without realizing. I was disliked by many, whether it is because of jealousy, or my character flaws, or even maybe the things I say, or do, to be honest, after a while, you just don't really know the reason. Yet at the same time, I disliked many, showed my "justice", treating another indifferently and it is just so clear in my face those whom I like and those whom I don't. Little did I realize when I did this, that I am no any different from the bully that I hated, from those murderers out there.

Passive aggression kills. It is a silent killer that kills excruciatingly. Bit by bit,it tortures the person as it made one feels small, feels unworthy, feels unloved. This is the worse punishment one could ever have. It hurts deeply. One can expect to be a living zombie if one is killed by this method. 

What made me realize this was a recent occurance.I am sick and tired of these "is she angry at me? what did I do wrong? She is driving me nuts!" game. Am also sick of asking "do they like me? are they deliberately ignoring me? why don't I belong?" and am sick of being hurt and to hurt others through this silent killer. I do want to stop the war. But what can free me from this seemingly endless cycle of pain and hurt? This is when I truly see what Jesus said:"Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer." Everyone. who HATES IS A MURDERER. How strong are those words. Hatred kills. Hatred attacks. Hatred hurts. Hatred makes one a murderer whether or not we are aware of it. And because of our sins, we are born haters. 

So back to the question. but What can free me from this seemingly endless cycle of pain and hurt? It sucks being the person to be hated, and it definitely feels justified to hate someone else, because the other person is always at fault, right? 
Jesus says in Matthew 5:44 "But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your father in heaven."
This is the answer to freedom. This is the answer to resilience. LOVE. 
More often than not, when I pray for those whom I dislike, which i find extremely difficult at first, I grow to love them. I grow to have compassion for them, I grow to want the good for them. Jesus says, to pray for our enemies, to love them. It seems like an almost impossible task, but that's the only way to be freed from this war. It puts our focus away from ourselves and unto the other person and that's when we start loving them. Love brings such unexplainable peace and joy and comfort and warmth which we all are seeking in our lives. And this can only happen if we have the holy spirit in us. 

It still hurts when I know that someone dislikes me and it is even more excruciating when I do not even know for sure but I know that I was treated indiffirently, yet I now have a hope nd the hope is in being the child of God, who is a loving Father. 

God Bless.
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Sleepless

On a night like this, I can't sleep.. Wondering what my future will be like.. 

This summer

This is my first summer in Adelaide. Am down with "mystery rashes" as according to the doctor and it is driving me crazy. Yet it is during these times that I realize my fragility and our dependancy on God. It is indeed, without God, we are nothing. It will be tough in Adelaide this year, but God knows what he is doing. :) Thank God that I have Him and He loves me. Even though the rashes are driving me crazy, I am thankful that He has given me peace over things and have really protected my thoughts. I pray that this will continue, and one step at a time, I will heal. :)

Love,
Qi.