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PI just realize how foolish I was last time to keep complaining that I don't have friends when I do have great friends :) lesson learnt. 

I miss them. :') thank God for the wonderful memories and company during the trip. I realize how ungrateful I was especially to Anna and this group of friends :) 

God provides

I think I better journal this down before I forgot. He says, seek ye first His kingdom and all shall be added unto you. 

Today I went for an experiment, paid experiment and I got $16. At first I thought, awh man, not gonna earn a lot today, but my my.. I just remembered that the money I got was enough to pay for my nice dinner last night! I had a beautiful ribs and even a lemon lime bitters for dinner and it cost me $16! I can't help but thank God for allowing me to enjoy a beautiful meal even when I am so poor at the moment, or more like unemployed. As much as it's hard to believe, I actually think that this is his way of telling me, that he wants me to enjoy life as well and don't worry, He will provide. :) 

This goes back to sonteam as well.. Last year, I have no idea how God will provide, but guess what, He actually did provide through other means! I don't have to do a certain subject that cost $4000 and that is the exact cost for son team!! $3800 and $200 for my India trip allowance!! How crazy is that!! :O 

Thank You lord, for providing for me :) 

A photo to remind me of my 21st birthday. Where he cared for me and He is my primary lover. :) 

今天

今天有那么美吗 ：）

Hope

Hope cannot exist without hopelessness first take place.

The act of hope is a belief that there's a possibility to get out of hopelessness. 

giraffe!

在一起

跟一个人在一起，你同时拥有了最好的朋友及家人。我才发现这祝福有多大。 ：）

Moments. Thoughts.

I was reading my post before I left for India, and my gosh.. God has sure answered all those prayers. Yesterday at the relationship course, what struck me the most is this bible verse somewhere in John that says that Jesus is praying for our unity, for our church unity. This is what He wants. He desires our unity. :) how amazing is that! There can't be no expectations in a relationship, yet, what drives your expectations? are they mainly to serve self? Or to serve others? I love how time and time again, God has placed people who will speak and discuss His truth in our lives to help us to grow. I felt myself being chirped by God bit by bit, but it's so amazing and joyful to just know that my Heavenly Father actually cared enough to correct me and love me enough to not want me to settle for less. This reminds me of the sermon John gave in India that says how often that we are just playing with sin. Trying to  walk on the edge, thinking that we won't fall, but the more we do that, the more likely we are gonna sink in to it and didnt even realize that we are being eaten. I felt like I am living like that at the moment. Walking on edges, playing and fooling around. Why over time and time again I just rather give in to sin and forsake true joy to get temporary happiness. Just like in proverbs 26:11 the dog returns to it's vomit. I am like that dog. Oh wells. But recently, especially coming back from India, I just felt so loved by God, and the beautiful thing is, even when I know I have messed up and make mistakes, this grey peace and joy knowing that His mercy is greater than my mistakes and just felt so loved by Him. I was kinda worried that i will go back to bemuse able again. But no! Shall not take the lie that God wants me to be miserable. He doesn't. He doesn't want me to be miserable, He wants me to live like who I am, I am His princess, I don't have to live in shame and guilt anymore! I don't have to live sheepishly and Emo-ly. Pastor Brian says, he wants us to be happy. Well, not in the selfish way, but to experience true joy, everlasting joy. He wants that for us. :) how beautiful is that! I love to live like someone being loved and I am loved :) I was so energised this week and felt this peace and joy in my heart though I was still battling with some sin. I just realize it's possible to have that joy and peace in your heart that comes from God even when you are in this sinful body. Just looking back, from the spiritual high moment, to how I break the commitment, to now, just like what timon says, God has a plan for us. And that plan is to transform us into christ likeness. Whatever that happens is for that purpose and to fulfill that plan. How amazing is that! And reassuring to know that! :D I love how we are all sinners but are loved by Our loving Father. While reading acts, I just felt like its India. Haha! When Stephen was talking about the idols, I felt like it was me. Just cz God is not doing what they like, they just ignored the true God and go make some carved idols. How foolish is that! That's exactly how I am. Stephen's eyes are so fixated on Christ and eternity that the physical pain he is experiencing are just like mosquito bites. Was just talking to Anita about this while we are down the park. Because the pleasure of her company and the scenery outweighs the mosquito bite's irritation so much more, I would not just leave the place and fellowshipping just cz of that one bite. His joy and hope that he has outweighs the pain of his body to the point where he even when he breathe his last breath, asks God to forgive them. How amazing is that! After that, they talk about Saul's conversion. Saul's conversion is like an extremist turn to Christ. It's crazy when u think of it. And he just keeps on proclaiming the truth ever since! Furthermore, when he start becoming a Christian, just like what Joy shared his story, he was persecuted by his own friends. That really made me think of the friends I made. Why bother investing so much time and effort on pleasing friends that don't matter, why waste time? But invest your time on things that really matter such as eternity. That's the perspective christians have. Other than that, this Eunoch guy, it's amazing how God sent a prophet just for him in the dessert and he responded and get on fire for God. Just really brings out that parable of the lost sheep and lost coin. Even if it's just one. And that highlights what a privilege it is for us to be called children of God. We don't even realize that. Wow. Thank you God for who you are. Amen. 

On a side note, I had a really great day yesterday with Rachael, we drank voss water rooibos tea and went perfume window shopping. I really enjoyed it and was just so glad to be able to get to know her better through perfume shopping. :) was just thinking, God delights in little moments like this too :) 

Alone vs lonely

http://www.indiaanya.com/2014/10/24/single-city-dinner-one/

When u are lonely when u are alone, u'r in bad company. So well said.

How comfortable am I being alone? Without the company of these people? Amazing post. This makes me wanna grab a coffee from Argo. Hahah! To experience life with God. 

Friends not six

I dislike taking such a long time to make friends but often times forgot that we are not six anymore. We don't just become friends just like that. 

一个人被爱的时候是最美的

想想如果我们每天都知道记得我们被天父所爱，会有多美啊！

We are first sinners, and second sinned against. Remember.

Dear heavenly Father,

After finish reading this book, my heart.. just can't contain the many things that you have taught me in the pages. Every page pointing me to the gospel and convicting of my weakness, lacking, my nature of being a "dust", my pride, stubborness, yet when I am "robbed" off from my "self-esteem" and "self-confidence", you have clothed me in your grace, your love and your mercy which is so much more glorious and beautiful than my own clothings of sin. Thank You for pointing to me.. my pride of not wanting to receive and accept your grace and mercy and wanting to do it my own way. I want to taste learn see the sweetness of the Cross all in your timing and when you have prepared me. I know the weight of this and I am scared. But rather from running away, I want to run towards your embrace. I have been doing a lot of running, avoiding, hiding.. teach me to receive your grace and mercy and extend that to others.. Surrendering is another thing.. There is so much that I am lacking but you so graciously pour out your love for me even when I don't deserve it. Thank you. Help me to live a life that does not trample on your grace and your mercy but to respond in the way you want me to. To love you and to love others because you have first loved me. I have been distracted by so many things and I know I will be in the future too. Money, friends, approval from people, love, idleness, comfort and many more.. but I pray o Lord, that you would bring me back to you. every single time. Thank You for your promise that I can rest upon and place my assurance upon. Protect and guard my heart and desire for you, to want to follow you and to love You. I pray that for all my brothers and sisters in Christ too, that you would guard our hearts till the very last day. And for my unsaved fanily and friends and those out there who have not yet known you, I pray that their hearts be transformed and their lives be touched by You. I pray for their salvation. Fill their hearts with your loving kindness and overflowing gratitude towards your work on the cross. I pray that as we go to India, our unity and love as a team and towards others will be shown and displayed that others can see You through our interactions. As You have told us, without You we are nothing. So I pray, may we abide in You always when we are over there. Gives us extra grace and mercy that we may extend that to our fellow brothers and sisters. May we love You first and love each other by pointing each other towards You. We desperately need You Lord. Thank You for You.

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只因月亮很圆😊

Rejection

What a scary thing isn't it. However, learning the truth about having God's approval is all I need and I already have His approval. There will be people who will accept and love me for who I am and in life there will be people who reject me for whatever reasons. Nonetheless, focusing on the people who loves me and forgive those who doesn't because at the end of the day, they are not the ones who determine my worth but God. :) 

Live

Live simply, so that others could simply live. 

Friend or foe?

You are not an enemy of God, but are you a friend of His? 

Health policy 😊幸福的一天

回憶

今天，你想製造一個什麼樣的回憶呢？：）

是。非，

这趟回来，我看到了一些，自己背后的包袱。

这趟回来，我感觉自己，学会了放下那包袱。

家中的是是非非，总是把我们全家压得好喘。

总是挑剔，总是郁闷，总是不快乐。

我感谢主，让我在这环境，看透了什么。看到了缺乏的一些。

得救了。现在的我，学会了一些。

就是那个，放下包袱的那回事。

主，求您保守我们家。

Blessings day 27

ST grow week day 1 and 2

High Rope Experience
I am afraid of a lot of things in life, and one of them is heights. It was horrible, to climb up there, and jump down by yourself. Even though you do have a harnest, it was still really scary for me. I was sincerely scared, but just like last time, the trainer assured me that i am safe because of the harness. It reminded me of how God knows I am scared, but He is patient. He is so patient in assuring me that it will be alright, that He has got my back, and I realize, I needed that small leap of faith for me to grow, and for Him to show me that He is trustworthy. It was a trust issue. It just reminded me of how in life, when I don't feel like it, but I know that He wants it done, I just have to take that small leap of faith for Him to continue working in my life.

Mount lofty
I really enjoyed it. So many things happened, and I was on a constant reflection of life and God. When it started off, I was alone, i know that I would most probs be the last person up there, but it doesn't matter, it is one step at a time. I realize I have been walking with people all along, but have I walked with God? I realized how I have been looking for the satisfaction, peace, comfort and security that i can only have in God in other people, and that's why there were so many more dissapointments. I like how andy says, Christianity is the only religion that allows you to be honest or expose your weakness. It feels horrible at first, but it is liberating, as Sara says, there is freedom in it, freedom in showing your weakness. Then after that, sowms was struggling and Andy was just there with her. And I realized, how people and company in life is God's gift, and I ought to treasure it. Train my mind yo, for thinking so much evil stuff about people. Then even sowms might not know, she was actually blessing me with her company, even when it feels like I was accompanying her. And I learn up there as well, that sometimes, you don't need the right words to say to comfort someone, you just need to be there, and they know it.

Volleyball
Felt a bit out of place, really don't feel like playing because I felt that I am letting the team down, but that aint gonna make my spirit go LOWWWW. I did tried my very best, and I am glad I did. I know we lost quite a bit because of my unskillness, but hey, who cares. :) It is a friendly game and I believe I still have a place in that. When haydes sort of takes all our balls, I do feel bad and useless, but still, hey! who cares! :) Pastor Paul was very nice, and he just encouraged me and said that great job in putting yourself in the game, which I find really encouraging. Was a fun filled game. All of them are just hillarious. Pastor brian, my gosh, so funny. It was so fun. :)

Sharing
Love how everyone shares their heart out and how I wish Fred will be there. And I wonder what will he say. I just felt like I don't know him enough, in a more spiritual level. Been really blessed in this grow week. I can see how God is working in different people's heart in sonteam, growing us together at the same time. Love it. Oh and how God provides. I said I wanna exercise more and really, this week is just a week of exercise. LoLZ! and how He teaches me to appreciate things and be content in life. When I say NO MORE BREAD. There's more bread. LoLZ!

Blessings say 26

I can can let go and let God.. <3

Blessings day 25

Thomas a Kempis said, "peace will always be found not in indulging our lower appetites but in resisting them." :) 

There is never any contradiction between spirit and reality. The contradiction is between spirit and matter, never between spirit and the real. 

Blessings day 24

Birthday fun. So interesting!!! Because... I turn 24 and it is blessings day 24! Thank you God for that! 😍We went, go kart, laser skirmish, birthday party lunch and.. Tiana's hen's night! :) 

Blessings day 23

Love is beautiful. 

Blessings day 22

Thank God for starbear camp. For kids who look out for one another and ate for each other. Kids who are generous to share their friends with others :) 

Blessings day 21

Thank God for nature. That we can be in touch with u. :) 

Blessings day 20

Thank God for nature. That we can be in touch with u. :) 

Blessings day 19

Thank God for Fred, that I am able to learn to love again. <3 p="">

Blessings day 18

Cleaning day!! 

The theme of today is shower grace and mercy to housemates day! And what I do today is purely just cleaning and not complaining, and next time, I shall clean and pray for my housemates and other people too! :) shall cultivate this culture for a happier life too. :) 

Thank God for the temporary housemate m. That we r able to work so well together! So efficient!! Love the work we have accomplished! Such a joy to be able to clean so fast and work well with others :) 

 Poor sick plant :( hope it gets well soon~  to be honest.. There's so many weird bugs and insects in my house especially the balcony.. Gosh.. Need to learn to live with them.. :( 

Blessings day 17

Thank God for beautiful music in our lives. :) 

P.s. my plants got bugs!! :'(((

Blessings day 16

Thank God for unit 10 :)

Blessing day 15

Thank God for an answered prayer! :) I asked for an opportunity to spread his word as I was feeling low and down and have been doubting for a bit about my salvation, but thank God for this opportunity to spread his word and remind me of what he is done for us. :) 

Blessings day 14

In Christ, there is nothing that I can do to make u love me more, and nothing that I have done to make u love me less. 

Thank God for His unchanging love. :) 

http://youtu.be/NW4-rPGgrlQ

Question of the day: why do I care about others opinion more than God's? 

Blessings day 13

American Standard Version

Kiss the son, lest he be angry, and ye perish in the way, For his wrath will soon be kindled. Blessed are all they that take refuge in him. 

Blessings day 12

It was a BBQ day and fringe day! Had tonnes of fun but was tired as well.. But the highlight was probably talking to Michael (a homeless man who happens to be a fisherman) and joined a silent disco! Too bad I don't have any photos on that, but! It was good :) 

Fringe bus

That's the silent disco that we join!

Aboriginal dance

New and matching earrings

Flashmob!

BBQ fun!! At Esther's place! Hahah! 

Blessing day 11

Went for Counselling and it's such a blessing to have someone hear u out and point u back to God. Someone whom u can work alongside with for your problem. I don't think it is the fixing the problem that matters but it is the company that matters. :) 

Had a relaxing nice night with fred as well.. We went to the festival thingy (Lola) met this friendly and funny bike guy, and he help us took photos. :) awh.. The artsy-ness in the garden.. Totally love it! Made me wanna do something similar too! Beauty of art in the garden.. Brightens up people's day :) 

Blessing day 10

How beautiful people can be hey!! Cz we r made in the image of God. When I see human potentials in the stories of people, I find God's glimpses of indescribable beauty and glory in them.. How amazing! Anyway! Thank God for laughter today!! I was a bit tired after the whole day.. And The Lord blessed me with something funny that I am able to laugh my heart out. The real name joke. Lol!! 

Blessings day 9

Today I had full day Counselling. But it was good.. Made me appreciate mummy  so much more!! Can see the turmoil she has gone through and how she manage all those.. Mothers are just amazing.. 💗 when I drove at night last night cz of son team giving out water at future music festival, I was so scared and I imagine.. How much more would that have been for my mum that she drove early in the morning at 6 to work at butterworth... How crazy is that.. Mummy is soo strong.. I am angry at all the lies that have crept in my heart during the early days that tells me mummy Dont love me. How evil is that!! To rip off a child from a mother's love.. I just hope now that Hwang can realize it soon.. 

Thank God for mummy!!! :D 

Blessings day 8

Today, I stumble upon an old blog that I use to write before I was a Christian. and my oh my. God sure answers prayer!! even when I was just seeking him and stuff! One thing that really struck me was, I was praying about my relationship with fred during camp, and yesterday, we had a quarrel and hence forced to talk things out which is really good. (Thank God for the opportunity) and today, He led me to this blog that I wrote years ago. and THEN I realized.. my oh my... my prayer is answered. 

Today is a: THANK GOD FOR FRED day!! and Thank God for a day of reflection and rest ^^

This IS CRAZYYYYY!!!! Fred meets EVERY SINGLE criteria on the list. I could not believe my own eyes. :'S I am so ridiculous, take Him for granted, yet he still bless me with this wonderful being...