ARTSy CollecTion! =))

Terry Riley In C

It has been quite some time since I last wrote down the little little drops of ink that has been marked down in this piece of paper of my life. All I can say is thank God for His faithfulness, His love. Right now, I jz finished another performance for this semester performed by us EMU students. It is just so amazing that how.. God works in people's life and today, I would say, this is my first performance in that I use to worship God. It is just so overwhelming and full of joy, love because I know that my Father in heaven is listening to what I'm playing. It doesn't matter what sort of mistake or what kind of noise I played. Because of Him, I learnt to accept myself, to accept the good and bad side of me, to offer myself but not a girl who forces herself to be perfect, who condemns herself for not being perfect, but "myself" of who I am, I give it all to God. God is just so loving for loving who we are even when we are sinful, He sent His Son to die on the cross for us and today, I can have this close relationship with Him, being able to worship Him in any form, being able to talk to Him just like this, what more else should I ask for. Yea, even though I know that there are still many areas in my life that I need to work on, but my Father in heaven is just so merciful and gracious. Thank you Lord for today, for everyday. For this precious life You have given me. 

Having my spirit saved, I've finally experienced the freedom of not being chained by the world. My soul can now find rest in the Lord. I duno why I'm writing all this, but at this moment, I just felt really really grateful and thankful for what the Lord has done in my life. Even when I'm a sinner and when I'm not faithful, He is always so faithful to me. Thank you Father. Thank you O Lord. =')

Well, =)) trying to mark down what happened today! =)

Actually ntg much, just another performance at scott theatre. Terry Riley's In C!! It was just so much fun. =)) I played the er hu today and.. yea was quite nervous at first, cz din even practice.. 0.0 but really thank God. I really really enjoyed it throughout the performance. The concept of this piece of music just makes me smile as well. =)) it reminds me of how God's love can be very influencial and show how God's community's like. To have that togetherness, that harmony, that peace when everyone is enjoying God's love and through that love of one another. 

The er hu incident.. really once again let me see how God works in people's life. How God can change a seemingly bad thing into another way of touching people's life. Through God's grace.. everything is just so possible. God is just so amazing. =))

I pray now, that my faith will stand strong, and that will not be shaken by the world. In Jesus name I pray, Amen. 

-Another wonderful "present" given by God. =')- Thank God. 

Reminder of this season:

Faith and Obedience. =))

White and Black

Suddenly it appears in my mind. I duno how true is this, but erm, here it goes. =)

White, is a combination of all colours, but once the colour is not balanced, it will remain black.

It's just like from the book I read from C.S. Lewis, "what christians believe", it says, something bad can only be derive from something good. Bad is when the intension of striving something "good" is distorted. Like how usually people do something "bad" because it makes them feel good, makes them feel happy, so it's from something good as well. I think he explains it a lot better. LoLz! just felt like writing the colour thingy here. =)

Nice Quote. =)

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. --Paul Boese

GIrls, time for another good book =)

It's always like that! LOLZ! everytime god blessed me with something awesome I wanna blog it out or write it down, but always! I mean, most of the time, lolz! I failed to do so... 0.0 apani!
But nvmd~ LoLZ! Or, when I open this blog, I just duno what to write anymore, those thoughts that were floating in my mind just.. whoosh! dissapear! 0.0 hmm........ but at least, it is imprinted in my heart already. =)
Just like this book, I have so many thoughts after reading it, and I really wanna blog about it, but now, when you ask me what to blog about, I really don't know, because I guess, reading this book by yourself is the best testimony. So, just go ahead and read it if ya are free. =P

C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in the casket --- safe, dark, motionless, airless --- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... The only place outside Heaven where you can perfectly safe from all the dangers ... of love is Hell.

Colouring

I love colouring. =) It requires a lot of courage. It shows who you are. And it brings you to a place where you never thought you will be. That's why I love colouring. =))

Sometimes, we are too afraid to colour the white spot, as we'r afraid that we might ruin the whole picture, but because of that we might miss the beauty of it being coloured.

At other times, we were too busy colouring that we forgot to look at the whole of the picture.

It's about not having too much, yet not too little. Having the right colour and having the right amount.

The balance.

This is why I love colouring. =))

Ambigrams! =D

My first ever Ambigram! =D

KACHAK!

Personally I jz like this photo. lolz! ntg much to it! HAHAHHAZ!

Horse

Born in the year of Horse. lolz! it has ntg to do with this piece of art here.
Just a random drawing because I saw the photo from my friend on facebook. and while waiting for my friends to go to the studio. =)

What have I been doin in Adelaide. *hmm...*

A small record of what have I been doing in Adelaide, to remind me of the happy memories that I had. =)

Firsts and Fun Stuff

1. Doing a lot of cooking
2. Being accepted in music course (a dream come true)
3. Studying in a recording studio
4. Recorded band
5. Bought my little Fender
6. Being able to complete assignment
7. That exam experience (Praise god!)
8. Accepting Christ
9. Housewarming and Party
10. Kbox (though not first, but fun! lolz!)
11. Performance in Adelaide (using stg that I've never used before)
12. Bought Bicycle and fixing it (Thanks to Matt! =D)
13. Working experience in market selling vege (=)
14. Rock Climbing (0.0)
15. Playing badminton (Not first, but fun! lolz!)
16. Guitar session
17. Roadtrip
18. Building my own oscillator and amplifier and mic (Thanks to Nicholas Collins)
19. First panel judgement
20. First exam in Adelaide
21. Prayer month
22. Prayer meeting
23. Cycling to Henley beach (almost dying lolz!)
24. Played drums
25. And Many More which I couldn't think of now

Thank god for all these blessings... =')
Just a small little record for myself to remind me of how blessed I am. =)
Words are unable to draw out the moments and it is definitely so much different from what it looks here, and how we read it here. Anyhow! it is still a very useful reminder, memo, to our memory.
I pray that for this semester I would continue to grow in Him and to improve more and more. =)
And I pray that even when there are challenges in life, I would have the courage to face it and to not lose faith as everything happens for a reason.

Thank you lord. :)

Music + Therapy = ?

Yeap yeap! one performance down! no photos, no videos taken. =X lolz! but the recording is imprinted in my memory! =) Scott, Terry, Meredith, Stuart. Yeap! my groupmates. =)
It was hmm.. awesome? ohkay? I still prefer the rehearsal better. lolz! I think all groups performed better during the rehearsal.

Last week's forum, it was a performance by these two people: the husband and wife from queensland. and it was awesome!! =) I not only love their performance, but also the concept.
They did mention something about bringing music back to where everyone can play it. It is not suppose to be an expensive thing to do. to play an instrument. We are caught up in a society that we thought we need to have that XXX brand instrument, or that awesome but freakin expensive instrument to sound good. But actually that's not the case. IN fact, every sound has it's own beauty and we should indeed embrace their beauty instead of looking at the shiny instruments in the shelf. It is a form of appreciation I guess and a reminder that everything has its own beauty as long as we really pay attention to it.

Their performance is based on percussion and piano. Where the piano is just superb! =D he modified the piano in a way that when he played it, the sound fits so beautifully to the percussion. and I never knew it was the piano until I was trying to see wht is he hitting. it was jz really small and random things that he uses to modify the piano, some random bolts, nails, paper and fix it on the strings of the piano. It was awesome! the percussionist too was excellent! she uses simple plates, papers! ropes! I wouldn't forget how she played the rope and the paper, the sound was just, incredibly brilliant.

And today! wala! another performance/ assignment 0.0 (I'd rather it to be called performance) lolz! the BIG BAND! where all music tech students shall now play together as a band! how cool is that! the song used is "In C" by Terry Riley. =DD love his concept too. and all of a sudden it has become.. wud I say, a dream come true? or.. another puzzle found to the mystery of why I chose music therapy out of no where when I was younger and why now music and psychology, and why in this music tech course, and finally the flow of everything that has happened. anyway! back to his concept! yea, he proposes that this piece is a social art work. which means, this brings community together and the importance of social interaction and where everyone can play and join in the fun kinda thing. =) the concept of community, bonding, interaction, relation. To me, it is a form of therapy. Therapy is just another "scientific" term where the core lies in the importance of connection between people as after all, we are social animals. This bringing people back together and forgetting about other things, "for example, status, pride, money those really realistic and significant things that stops us from being who we are" concept is what we need in the society right now. REal playing.

Well, hope we will have heaps of fun while doing this orchestra thingy! lOLZ! =D

Jam+butter flies! =D

o-M-g! =DD))XXSS!!! lolz!! am actually rather nervous now! woops! =P one and a half hours later, I'll be having my very first performance in adelaide, erm... official performance. =P am nervous! wuh! lolz! but the jamming session in the afternoon was real fun, really really fun! =)

I can't believe I'm actually jamming using DRUMS! LOLZ!!!!! when I dun even noe how to play a stable proper beat! hHAhAHAHZ! but thanks to nic! for the three drum sessions! that now I can fool around with the drums! lolz! it was jz so fun! =))))

For the past few months, things have been happening and yeap, life's ups and downs, etc etc, but no matter how, in all ways, I would love to thank god soo soo much, yea, for everything that He has done. There's an overflowing gratitude not only for His grace, mercy but also his guidance and so much more.

I pray that Juno 6 will be a good boy/girl later, and produce wonderful sounds, and I really pray that for the performance later, it would be an amazing and blastful one, and all of us would enjoy the music and everything shall go smoothly.. I really really hoped everything went well!

=)))

wuh!

Sharing, caring and what else? =)

My brain's clotted. Clotted with unwanted vocabs, clotted with wanted yet unfounded vocabs, clotted with thoughts.
What else?

Thoughts. Thoughts that were overwhelmed that I couldn't careless to sort it out. The same word, sentence, might look different to everyone as their own spices were added in.
Ask, and an answer will be given.
Just an answer. to you.

Messy. All over the place. What else?
Say yes to A, say Yes to b.
A or b? you choose. Decide. stand.

So many times, so so many times, when you are not saying what you are thinking.
But how? There's no way. But How?

Just another day, another year, another tic tok.
So what else?

Think,

The Road Less Travelled

Finally, after half a year? I finished reading this book. =)
I would not say much but this is another "must read" book. =)
I guess, questions were answered through different books and ways.
It's a seemingly slow process, but a firm one.
This process of growth.
Don't rush to finish a book, but truly listen to what it has to say. =)

blog it! blog it! and Blog iT! =D

Where to start??
Where to stop??!
I have so much to blog! =D
ohkay, I shall start with this first.

Nicolas Collins :: Workshops, Talk and Performance - Closing 28th May

New York born and raised, Nicolas Collins studied composition with Alvin Lucier at Wesleyan University, worked for many years with David Tudor, and has collaborated with numerous soloist and ensembles around the world. He lived most of the 1990s in Europe, where he was Visiting Artistic Director of Stichting STEIM (Amsterdam), and a DAAD composer-in-residence in Berlin. Since 1997 he has been editor-in-chief of the Leonardo Music Journal, and since 1999 a Professor in the Department of Sound at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago. The second edition of his book, Handmade Electronic Music – The Art of Hardware Hacking, was published by Routledge in 2009. Collins has the dubious distinction of having played at both CBGBs and the Concertgebouw. More information: http://www.nicolascollins.com/

Electronics and Hardware Hacking for Musicians (Basic)

No prerequisite

Saturday, June 12

8 hours

FREE for Elder Conservatorium Students

Note: students maybe required to bring a number of cheap / free electronic items

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Electronics and Hardware Hacking for Musicians (Advanced)

Prerequisite: Electronics and Hardware Hacking for Musicians (Basic)

Sunday, June 13

8 hours + Post-Workshop Concert

FREE for Elder Conservatorium Students

Note: students maybe required to bring a number of cheap / free electronic items

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Please note:

+ We appreciate the workshops are being held during the major assessment period, as a result we will grant a 3 day extension (2 days for the workshops + 1 bonus day) to any student attending both workshops. The extensions apply only to music technology courses whose assessment is due during or after the workshop in semester 1. This includes the following courses: Creative Computing 1 / 2 / 3, Audio Arts 1 / 2/ 3, Perspectives in Music Technology 2, Audio Studies (C4 and Diploma), MIDI Studies (C4 and Diploma), Sound Engineering (Studio) (Diploma), Music Technology Forum (Diploma Only). Course lecturers are aware of the situation but you will need to inform them of your participation and request for extension.

+ Places at the workshop are limited - there are not enough places for all students - first in, best dressed.

+ If you are interested you must email me by 5pm, Thursday, May 28th to register your place

+ Current and former (enrolled) music technology students are given priority access to places at the workshop. After the registration cut off date free places will be opened up to other students for a short period; and then additional paid places will be made open to the public - if you know someone who is interested, get them to contact me and I can provide details as they become available.

+ I know some of you would have already covered some electronic hacking in various courses, but I would still encourage you to attend as the workshop content will differ. Further, Nicolas Collins will be able to offer a unique insight - he did after all.. write the book. :)

+ A detailed schedule of events including the artist talks and workshops will be released soon.

In closing, if you have an interest in any of the following: making sound, electronics, hacking, tinkering, making your own instruments, building your own effects processors (distortion, preamps, pitch trackers), experimenting with noise, sound design, performance etc, then these workshops will be invaluable and are a very rare opportunity!

YES! this is the workshop that I attended. Music Tech students wud go.. awh man! this is such a rare opportunity! and the rest wud go.. just like my first reaction. ...... erm.. who? or... who the hell is this guy? and wht is this about? It was crammed with my assignments, exams and all, and since our lecturer STRONGLY suggested that we should go, I think that this must be stg GOOD.. REal GOoOD. though I have no idea wht;s gonna happen at that moment. HAHAZ!
It's a two days workshop and we got three days extension for our assignment for whoever that's attending this workshop. People wud go.. wow! that's great, but if we really do the maths, it's trading off one day, BUT!!! u get a ReaL experience that will change your life. =)

Nicolas Collins. Must be a star to many sound engineers or music tech related people. I suppose others would surely go.. OH MY GOSH! it's Nic cOllINs! (0.0 erm.. yea.. it is him. HAHAZ!) and I might be one of them in the future after attending his workshop. =) =) =)
It widens up my view so much and showed me so many possibilities once again.
I guess why music is my thing is because it fits my personality that gets bored easily and it's always stg new with music, there are no boundaries, no limits but just full of possibilities.

ANYWAY! this is really exciting for me that I wanna record this down~
ohkay, so... on those two days, basically.. I've transformed from a *music student* (^^hehehehehe!^^) to an electronical engineer. (wooooooooooooooooo~~~HAHAZ!)
(this is just to feed on my small little fantasy.. tsk tsk tsk ._. reality is.. am nothing close to that. HAHAHZ!)
Neways, let's continue..
This workshop. is really a workshop. 0.0
HAHHZ! for the whole two days, we have been working and doing and soldering and fixing and matching and tearing and cutting and and and burning and.. 0.0 yeap.. basically working.. which makes it a workshop. we were taught to make our own amplifiers, own microphones, hacking toys etc etc from scratch. ( man, he is such a genius. 0.0)
and so! now I have my very own amplifier, and microphone! =D

we were suppose to prepare a list of things to bring to the workshop, but many of them, I din have it, thank god, I met my classmate in the lift and he eventually lend me a lot of things. Thanks Al! =D even the most important thing of all, raw speakers. really thank god that he's there that day, or else I couldn't have survived without having all the things and wud be such a wasted opportunity, but god knows what's best for us. =) Thank god. =)
The next day I even bought my own soldering tool from dick smith, and thank god for that. =)

Emotions..
honestly, having gone through this workshop, before and after and in between, my emotions are rather peaceful, I would say, not as dramatic as how I wrote it. hahaz! Nevertheless, I learnt a lot and this would be one of the things that I would never forget in my life. Thank god for this wonderful experience and really, widen my view. Though tiring, it is yet so fun. =) and I would say, the tiredness is ntg compared to what I have gained. Thanks Nicolas Collins (a remarkable character), Thanks Christian (for opening up this opportunity) and Thank God. =)

P.s. I wanna thank EMU department for your hard work and the sincerity of lecturers even though it's just a small department. you guys are awesome. =) And thank god I'm here in Adelaide, learning music under such great lecturers. =)

=during the hols, hopefully I'll video some of my "product" for memory. =) and hopefully I can create more fun stuff. though it's hard. HAHAZ!=

This is treasure. =P

My first Contact Mic. =)

My first.. what mic is this? HAHAHZ!

My first Oscillator! Using the newly bought Soldering Tool from Dick Smith. =D

Side View (baby oscillator~ ^^)

Soldering Tool From Dick Smith =D

Treasury rubbish =D


The best of all. My own amplifier. Thanks Al for the speaker. =)



great experience, great experience. =)



sound of my baby oscillator! =D

Pride

For many times our pride covers our head with a box that makes our head looks so big and blocks all our senses. Our view is therefore limited to the darkness and the little space in the box. Our ears can't hear others but our very own voice. We often thought we already knew something but when we truly listen, we will find grace (/something new) each time. When we take off our box, we'll see that we are not alone. =)

I jz find it beautiful. =P

那年我和初恋的他相遇了

拥抱，是我第一首会弹的歌。

于是我们拥抱，奔跑，

开始信仰音乐。

=）
so beautifully written.

By 阿信 （五月天）
Song Title
--突然好想你--

There are so many things that I wish to record down.. I shall wait! =)

10/6/2010

Of all the things that I wanted to blog for these past few weeks.
This I cannot wait. =)

Philippians 3:13
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.
But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead.

Just a reminder =)

(James 3:13-18 NIV) Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. {14} But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. {15} Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. {16} For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. {17} But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. {18} Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.

Reflection on this week

Sitting in the midst of no where
playing jazz
surrounded by dancing notes
Reflecting on what has happened this week

Monday,
was a day I started to become
a total lack of motivation
a mental block of my own
a holding back
against myself.
and..
the topic of loneliness bugs me through

Tuesday,
Another day that is full of question
searching and searching
but I forgot to look into the esence of all
And though it sounds strange,
I am proud that I did not skip work
I stayed on,
That is a small step of growth,
which then leads me to

Wednesday,
I remembered having said to myself
哪怕全世界只有一个人懂你，你都要珍惜。
I called that someone
who looks into the same sky
and that I knw will always be there for me
and still, searching for answers,
burdened by questions,
I finished a book -- the road less travelled
that took my half a year to finish
but here I am
travelling to

Thursday,
along this spiritual journey
seeking forguidance
and felt helpless and lost
desperate to find someone to talk to

but once again, I was left alone
alone in the darkness
alone in the midst of nowhere
if only someone would ask me
are you ohkay?

Suddenly,
There's a voice that says,
don't worry,
an angel will be sent down to protect u
I have ntg left to say
but cry
Tears, both sad and happy
which symbolizes the serenity of life
have no where to go
but roll down my cheeks

And thus,
an answered was given,
on the topic that I dwelt on
Yes, this is life
A life that constantly gives u grace
to open up your eyes and
to enlighten your soul

I now understand that this is a topic that
I've been given to learn
waiting for my breakthrough
and essential for my growth
to learn to be confident
to learn to be strong
and to learn to continuously seek god's grace

Only by seeking him
things shall fall in place,
and only be seeking him
I shall be who I am
and my questions shall be answered

Thank god
even though I was lost this week
little angels were sent to brighten up my day
and when I was blindly folded
T W N J X S P P T
and random people that jz walk pass my life
who lifted me up when I'm in the dark

And the next second,
just right after these thoughts came to me
A verse was msged
"Come to me all you who are
weary and burdened and I
will give you rest." Matt 11:28
And yes, seek no one but god's grace

Here comes the song
of Rascal Flatts
"oh you find god's grace in every mistake
hope you give more than you take"

It's a lesson of seeking god
and a lesson of not wanting more but to give more


God ended my day with a wonderful rainbow
filled with beauty
filled with peace
what a wonderful world, what a beautiful day..

God's Promise! =D

A reflection on Loneliness

Yeap, just as the topic says. Loneliness. I think this is the first time I'm ever admitting this. And as far as I hate to admit this, I think loneliness lies within me. Or mayb fear of loneliness? Why out of a sudden? Cause I had a very sad nightmare last night. A nightmare that is enough to make me burst into tears. Not trying to whine here, but I suppose, I must face this somehow. I prayed to know the reason for many things that was happening to me, which I don't really know why. Sometimes you just do things unconsciously, without knowing it, and on the next second, u realize u just did it. And there are things that you know you shudn't do, or pointless for you to do it, you'll do it unconsciously. And this is my breakthrough I guess, to know the answer. =:')

It's just this sudden outburst, that you are aware of something. Though the dream does not feel good (at all), but somehow, it feels good to know , at least good to know why. In the end, I can't deny that I'm a human. Every time when someone says that they are lonely and need a b/g friend etc., or they are bored, ..... , I would raise my eyebrow and go.. =:S hmm... come on~ people, there are so many things in this world that u need to do, and come on people, look at the people who cared about u, who is surrounding you. I guess, the reason that I oppressed so strongly, is because nevertheless, I'm one of them. Feeling lonely. Feeling insecure.

Having to admit I'm lonely is a big step for me. Maybe I should take the initiative to get to know people and get to bond with people. But somehow, I'm just being shy I guess? I don't feel confident enough to take the first step or mayb I would take the first step and back off later 0.0 and I'm so so afraid of rejection, how people view me and all. Especially, one of the scariest thing happened to me again over here. One of my good friend just.. gone.. again.. (Hmm.. writing this down actually helps to think more. =:) )
Though I'm saying all these, (Not to say I don't love you and din feel your love! HAHAHZ!) I still felt really grateful to have all the people who loved and cared about me in this world. My family, Kee, Asses, HELP-ians (u know who u are. HAHAZ!), my teachers and many more. Who passed by my life, who walked with me, who lift me up when I fall, mayb just for that one moment, mayb for many times, those who are not tired of listening to my problems even for years and even when it is repetitive, to those who just sincerely cared and loved me. =')

Yeap, I suppose, this is an area in my life that I need to work on. A serious problem I guess. A root to many many other unanswered question. Thank god for revealing the answer to me. =:)

Voice of Guitar

Yeap! I'm a Music Student! HAHAHAHZ! can't believe that word actually appears on me! It's totally like a dream come true~ =:) totally thank god for that! =:D am really grateful and thrilled and awh.. it just feels so great~ though assignments are piling up, and am goin to be awesomely stressed out, but Yeap! I still feel awesome! I'll just do my best and leave the rest to God.
Hmm.. It's been such a wonderful journey, to actually go through.. day by day and trace by trace, but without any notice, and that you have reach a place where you once dream of. =)

I'm currently working on my assignment and once again, the question of purpose in life came knockin on my head. I believe there is a reason that I was arranged to study psychology and music tech, I believe there is a reason why I'd chosen music therapy among all the other stuff that I can find even though I din noe much about it at that time, I believe that no matter what, it will lead me to a place where I was meant to be. I just felt really grateful for that.

Though I will be lost again and still having fear from time to time, I believe things will just be on the right track in the end as long as I have faith. Today, my friend shared with me that faith is not something that u believe blindly, but faith is constructed by evidence. I reckon it's not physical evidence, but real evidence that not only rely on your physical senses but maybe experience? Something that happened in your life that you just have to pay attention to. Just like trust is based on certain foundation. U can't just simply trust or believe something.

This song, is another incomplete first draft, but once again, I wanna post it up here, just in case I become slackish again. HAHAZ!
This song, was inspired by a friend, whom I just wanna comfort and do nothing much, but tell her that everything's gona be alright.

It just happens to me that my assignment requires us to think philosophically about the music that we are making, (and that's wht I really love about wuh! HAHAZ! though.. I HOPE!! it will come out just right! ><>< >
I have so much to learn and improve, and once again! I really REALLY hope I'm not saying for the sake of saying! >< Hopefully I can brush up my skills and really.. contribute whteva I can to this world. Of course, not to forget in improving myself and all..

Hopefully I will come up with a nicer and complete-er version of this version of song soon.
*skills are awful, hopefully can do stg about it! 0.0

To this friend:

Hey darling,
Don't worry,
Everything will be fine

Feel the breeze
Go on ease
And let the peace reside

You'll be fine
I'm sure you'll be fine
Just close your eyes
And you'll be fine

Let the spirit
Be with you
As He is always
There with you

To cast away your fears
To wipe off your tears
Do not fear
As He will hear

Hey darling,
Once again just close your eyes
and let the spirit flow
You are not alone
As He is always here
Love is always here
with you...




oh BTW! that place is my uni! =P

=peace=

Fear

I just realize today, that I have a fear for commitment, but.. somehow I'm constantly seeking and longing for it. But I have the fear. Why? hmm... commitment not int the sense of relationships only, but more than that. Hmm.... why?

Music Concrete

(Quote: Stockhausen on the 9/11 attack)
'What has happened is - now you all have to turn your brains around - the greatest work of art there has ever been. That minds could achieve something in one act, which we in music cannot even dream of, that people rehearse like crazy for ten years, totally fanatically for one concert, and then die. This is the greatest possible work of art in the entire cosmos. Imagine what happened there. There are people who are so concentrated on one performance, and then 5000 people are chased into the Afterlife, in one moment. This I could not do. Compared to this, we are nothing as composers... Imagine this, that I could create a work of art now and you all were not only surprised, but you would fall down immediately, you would be dead and you would be reborn, because it is simply too insane. Some artists also try to cross the boundaries of what could ever be possible or imagined, to wake us up, to open another world for us.'
Karlheinz Stockhausen, Hamburg, September 2001.

first experience

Just like a new born baby~ just wanan record down my first ever australia experience here. =;)

Ever since I came here, I did not learn much about australian culture and did not really go and check up on what;s goin on, and how different is this country etc.
Therefore I'm not really that hardworking to go and interact and learn stuff about the culture,
in fact, I became so much quieter than I was before.

However, I'm so blessed that I've met (basically if without my housemate I don';t think I would be able to experience) , a friend, a very nice friend, invited us to her house for dinner, and it was a great experience and awesome dinner. Despite us not having ANZAC biscuits before, she actually made those biscuits for us jz for us to taste it because she says it's a traditional australia culture when she can;t even eat it, that's so sweet... =:) She introduced us to this movie called "the Castle" and though our laughing point differs, I still feel there's this common thing in this film that relates to all.. which is the warmth of the family. =:)

But today, the most amazing part of all, of course, for her being so kind and nice to invite us to dinner and experience a truly australia culture is already a bIG thinG!
Tonight, I just felt so awesome to be able to see the stars again.. a sky that is full of stars..
It was just so awesome, reminds me of pantai kerachut and moreover, I saw a shooting star..
=:) first time ever in Adelaide.... just felt like laying on the grass and think about nothing but just, looking into the stars.. what a life.. =:)

Till now, though I;m already halfway through my dream, I still can;t forget.. how awesome.. the nature is.. and how they gave me strength and a sense of.. unexplainable feeling.. =:) a sense of happiness I suppose?

Am so blessed tonight.. and tonight I was somewhat reminded of a friend of mine, who's staying in a similarly nice place like this and who was once a close friend of mine.
Though there are misunderstandings which somewhat cuts through our friendship, and to be honest, was rather hurt by that, but I'm sure everything happens for a reason, and that the misunderstandings are gone, the main thing I wanna say here is, I just wish that friend of mine is as blessed as I am now, that's all I wish for. =;)

good night..
=peace=

Paper Assignment!!

and...........
Finally!! 0.0 been wanting to post this assignment up for quite some time, HAHAZ!
Ignatius Saw, if u saw this, yeap, this is basically what I'm suppose to let u see~ HAHAHZ!!



Basically, the source of the sound is from a piece of paper, I crushed it, tear it, blow it, pop it.. whteva it, to get the samples.. ohkay, this is an assignment, might not sound great, but..
HAHAHZ! my very first music assignment! am excited about it actually. =;D
and woops! HAHHAHZ! the face of the video.. HAHAHZ!! that's some software thingy from somewhere, trying to imitate my look, intro by a hostel mate here and....
I jz randomly put it there, because I wanan make the audio into a video, u've got to have some image or else they won;t let me put in the audio, that's why~ WOOPS! HAHAHAHZ!!

so hell yea, this is finally up! =:)

Stairs

I don't wanna give myself any excuses anymore, an incomplete yet completed piece is what I'm goin to post here. HAHAZ!

This song, is just made up by a few notes, actually that day was jz joking with Xiao Joon and I thought of doing an A7 song~ well eventually, I just try out and see how it goes~ and I came out with this! hAHAHZ! but after that only I realize it's not A7, but... WOOPS! I forgot.. 0.0 but there are basically just four notes? used in this song.

This song came with a picture of a little boy, who found this door, a door of stairs and was excited and curious yet a little fearful at first, he decided to climb the stairs and see where it goes.
As he goes on..
He finds it so exciting at first that he continues to climb and climb and climb and
imagining all sorts of wonderful things at the end of the stairs, he is so motivated that he continues to climb and climb..

but after a while, he begin to get tired, yet still having hopes that the end is comin soon..

Climb and climb..
he trips and fall, but he doesn;t mind..

but now..
He started doubting whether is there an end.. and whether there is an end..
He started realizing that he is lost now..
lost in nowhere..
no one..
nothing..
why is he here at the first place?
Where is this?

he stopped

he took smaller steps and smaller steps

and started to think what is this all about?

.......

looking at the two endless road..
he started to take a baby step afterall..
he realizes.. this is not a dream..
and even a dream can be real..
he might not know what is the end, and what will come..
but he continues walking
he continues took smaller steps than ever, but stronger steps
firm steps, he tripped, but he gets up faster than ever..
he walked and walked..

there's no ending..
but there;s a picture that we can see from far, is a door that is waiting for him.

I guess this is life
This song, I suppose is a reminder for myself
that, just continue walking
just like today, I might be slackish
and lost again..
but just continue working and doing
u'll never get wrong
just do it *nike* HAHAHZ!

yeap, just do it. =;)

u'll never know what happens next, but just, do it. =;)


p.s. not in a misleading way that u do bad stuff. HAHAHZ! but just, every step u take, might lead you to your dream, I don't know, but I hope so. =;)

=;)

just drew this during the hols. =:)

double standard? double.. stg.. I can't remember the name of my drawing, but I can remember that kev inspired me with the name of this piece. =;)

I'm an escpaist! =;)

I've been sleeping
sleeping in this world,
that I no longer know whether it's real or not
mayb I'm not a practical person
HAHAHZ!

Everything that I see seems so unreal now
I don't know why
and I don't know since when it started
it seems to me that it's just pixels
pixels that behind it, is just nothing
another picture, another photograph

Recently I have an idea that why I just love drawing and songs
well, might be just another explanation
arts.. a formless thing.. maybe it is formless till the sense that it makes us see the truth
=;)

Walking down the streets everyday,
drinking with friends,
chatting,
studying..
cleaning
cooking
somehow,
I only feel alive in my dreams and when I listen to some good music
The only thing I can recall from all the days I've been in adelaide
are the trees and the wonderful feeling trees gave me

It's just, phenomenal
trees..
I really think that you need to be really wise in order to be a tree
weird huh? HAHAZ! but yea.. that's what I thought
=:)

I wanted to post and write lot's of stuff up here, but.. at the moment I'm just being a bit messy
HAHAZ!
this video, I've always wanted to post up, but.. I just duno how to post~ HAHAZ!

This very fine day, I drove to botanical garden
and I just enjoy the boulevard that I drove through when going to gurney
love it, really love it. =:)

Such a relaxing day, ntg else, just trees and me, and my pencil with my paper.. that's all
that's just as simple. =;)

新的发现 II

哈哈！这一篇，我想写关于今天所发生的一个小插曲。

这几天，发生的一些事情，让我不懂该用什么样的心情去面对。
今早，我好像行尸走肉般的去做工。思绪放空，也或许乱得我也不知道我到底想的是什么，
突然，有一阵淡淡的coriander香味，让我顿时觉得好清新。很喜欢这种感觉，也很感激我可以拥有这么美好的时刻。虽然只是种小小的插曲，简单的香味，但这份简单，我好喜欢，也很感恩（grateful)。^^感谢我可以闻到这么美好的香气，感谢可以得到这种微妙的幸福。（让我想起某个人很讨厌幸福两个字。HAHAHZ！）（用华语写，对我来说还是有点怪怪的~哈哈哈！

新的发现 I

很特别的，我并没有写心情的习惯，因为我总觉得，写了等于告诉别人自己多么不稳定，
写了让别人认为我是个很EMO的人，写了别人就觉得这个人很弱，很不成熟。而且，说实在的，我对文字的拿捏也真的是不太好，往往要表达的东西都变成误会。
今天，我之所以写出来，不是要告诉别人些什么，也不是要搞什么EMO EMO 的东西，而是一个成长的记录吧。=）我也许忘了，这些疑惑，选择，都是个成长的过程，而不是该觉得羞耻的什么事。=）

很神奇的，刚满二十岁的我，又来到了人生的交叉点，又是另一个选择的时刻。
是，像去年那样的疑惑，但这次，我发现即使多了些困扰，我却比去年少了些不安。
难过，不瞒你说是存在的，但不再像海那样的波涛汹涌，而是像河流一样缓缓地流过。虽然难过，但心中的感激还是没有中断。这种感觉很妙，也很可爱。=）

这个星期，发生了不少事。让我停下脚步，放下坚持，左看看，右看看，再看看自己。我所坚信的东西，被动摇了。是有些失落，但也让我学会该如何继续成长。骄傲与自信，只是一线之差。要如何取得平衡，真是一门功夫啊。要学习空了你的杯子，学习聆听，这是我正朝着的目标。虽然可能一开始还会回到以前的那份习惯，但无论如何，我要加油！=）

第二点，是积极地面对人生。我是个三分钟热度的人。这一点，或许是我的特性，但也绝对是我的死穴，即使无法成为十分有纪律的人，但我最起码的是要认清这点，并求进步。说的容易，不过也希望我做的时候也能像现在这样心甘情愿咯。=P

写这份东西，很怕是份嘴泡的报告。很怕有期望，很怕有失望，于是很多时候我选择逃避。是时候学会面对了。=）你可以的。失败，不是种罪，而是在指引你走向对的方向。=）

加油！！=）

林宥嘉 - 感同身受

作詞:林夕 作曲:Skot Suyama

有誰流過眼淚 請說
有誰沒有哭過 請說
你也怎么能愛過 如果那個是我
可能比你更失落

我想說 每個人都差不多
不一樣的血肉之軀在痛苦快樂面前
我們都是平起平坐
全世界的脈搏（像你像我）
讓我們用心撫摸（是你是我）
別人的眼淚隨時來自你和我的雙眼
有那么多人在寂寞 就沒有人寂寞

有誰曾經要死要活
想象連呼吸也很難過
給我會怎么做 有同樣的遭遇
是否有相同結果

我想說 每個人都差不多
不一樣的血肉之軀在痛苦快樂面前
我們都是平起平坐
在同一本小說（像你像我）
主角無分你我（是你是我）
別人的遺憾當中看到自己犯過的錯
有那么多人在寂寞 就沒有人寂寞

（那些笑容）都是為了什么
（那些折磨）是怎么樣解脫
（讓人快樂）我們都會快樂
（讓人寂寞）誰還敢說寂寞

This song, once again was sung by Yoga Lim. And yes! this song is AWESOME as well! or I won't post it up here. =p
1. The lyrics. Exactly. When we are upset, we tend to think that we are the only ones who suffer etc. well, this is so not true. As it is only how u perceive it. The lyrics written is wonderful. It has this opposition effect (man, how I wish my English is better so I can elaborate more precisely, but anyhow, yes it is like the number 8, passing through here and crossing through there but in the end it is the same, but different as it goes through different pathways. =))

2. The melody of this song is composed by a westerner, no wonder it has this different feeling. I though wow! this is a breakthrough for Chinese pop music and was curious who wrote this. but apparently, not a Chinese. Anyhow, it is still wonderful and it fit perfectly with the lyrics or vice versa. =)

3. The dynamic and arrangement of this song is the most beautiful among all. especially the dynamic. Love it. it goes from loud to soft, and from loud to soft, and falsetto used, perfect. and the ending, jz stopped like dat. it really catches people's emotion. Love it. =)

Wohkay! enjoy once again. =)

说谎

說謊
詞︰施人誠 / 曲︰李雙飛

是 有過幾個不錯對象
說起來並不寂寞孤單
可能我浪蕩 讓人家不安
才會結果都陣亡

我沒有什麼陰影魔障
妳千萬 不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何況那算什麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
妳懂我的 我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊 請別以為妳有多難忘
笑是真的 不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳
沒想到已經換了 裝潢
角落那'窗口 聞得到玫瑰花香
被妳一說是有些印象

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
妳知道的 我缺點之一就是很健忘
我 哪有說謊 是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊 我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到 難道就會怎麼樣
別說我 說謊 人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊 是愛情說謊
它帶妳來 騙我說 渴望的有可能有希望
我沒 有說謊 祝妳做個幸福的新娘

我的心事請妳全遺忘

It has been quite some time for me to love a Chinese song this much. This song is remarkable.
The lyrics, the melody. It's just way awesome. WHY?

1. The lyrics of this song. At first, I thought it was just another song that says, hey girl, I'm not lying, please trust me and stuff but apparently, that's not what it is. This song has a underlying meaning and in a way, it is trying to tell us how pain and sad he is by repeating that he is ohkay. It might sound a bit *sweat* for me to say so, but somehow, this song caught my attention and caught my heart. There is something deeper than it looks and I like this kind of music where they actually has great settings and traps and different approaches compared to the straight forward love songs that says *I will die without u* and repeatedly says that how lonely someone is. Though I recon that Chinese people are more passive in a way as their songs (or our song) continuously repeats the same notion of how hurt and how sad and how emo one is without the other. I somehow feel it's a waste for a good music. As the message transferred throughout a song is so strong that one can actually influence many people. This song, writes through the real situation with depth.

2. The melody and arrangement of this song. Yoga Lim is definitely AWESOME in interpreting this song. His care-less tone disguised the emotions really well and uses falsettos at some parts which really just had some star-dust effect on it. =) A- Awesome. =) The melody though it seems like the old usual ballet, but he added some darkness into it and just made a small twist. So it's dark and K and awesome. =) P.s. The front part of the piano too. =)

3. The MV. This is one cool MV. The front part which stated: 说谎要吞一千根针哦... wow! the creepiness is hundred percent! but big round of applause to the girl who said this. =) And not to forget the red rose at the end of this MV. love it lots. really awesome. =)


This song, is a song with sincerity and that is what matters. love it. =)
Hope u enjoyed it as much as I do~ =)