Reflection on this week

Sitting in the midst of no where
playing jazz
surrounded by dancing notes
Reflecting on what has happened this week

Monday,
was a day I started to become
a total lack of motivation
a mental block of my own
a holding back
against myself.
and..
the topic of loneliness bugs me through

Tuesday,
Another day that is full of question
searching and searching
but I forgot to look into the esence of all
And though it sounds strange,
I am proud that I did not skip work
I stayed on,
That is a small step of growth,
which then leads me to

Wednesday,
I remembered having said to myself
哪怕全世界只有一个人懂你，你都要珍惜。
I called that someone
who looks into the same sky
and that I knw will always be there for me
and still, searching for answers,
burdened by questions,
I finished a book -- the road less travelled
that took my half a year to finish
but here I am
travelling to

Thursday,
along this spiritual journey
seeking forguidance
and felt helpless and lost
desperate to find someone to talk to

but once again, I was left alone
alone in the darkness
alone in the midst of nowhere
if only someone would ask me
are you ohkay?

Suddenly,
There's a voice that says,
don't worry,
an angel will be sent down to protect u
I have ntg left to say
but cry
Tears, both sad and happy
which symbolizes the serenity of life
have no where to go
but roll down my cheeks

And thus,
an answered was given,
on the topic that I dwelt on
Yes, this is life
A life that constantly gives u grace
to open up your eyes and
to enlighten your soul

I now understand that this is a topic that
I've been given to learn
waiting for my breakthrough
and essential for my growth
to learn to be confident
to learn to be strong
and to learn to continuously seek god's grace

Only by seeking him
things shall fall in place,
and only be seeking him
I shall be who I am
and my questions shall be answered

Thank god
even though I was lost this week
little angels were sent to brighten up my day
and when I was blindly folded
T W N J X S P P T
and random people that jz walk pass my life
who lifted me up when I'm in the dark

And the next second,
just right after these thoughts came to me
A verse was msged
"Come to me all you who are
weary and burdened and I
will give you rest." Matt 11:28
And yes, seek no one but god's grace

Here comes the song
of Rascal Flatts
"oh you find god's grace in every mistake
hope you give more than you take"

It's a lesson of seeking god
and a lesson of not wanting more but to give more


God ended my day with a wonderful rainbow
filled with beauty
filled with peace
what a wonderful world, what a beautiful day..

God's Promise! =D