I was reading my post before I left for India, and my gosh.. God has sure answered all those prayers. Yesterday at the relationship course, what struck me the most is this bible verse somewhere in John that says that Jesus is praying for our unity, for our church unity. This is what He wants. He desires our unity. :) how amazing is that! There can't be no expectations in a relationship, yet, what drives your expectations? are they mainly to serve self? Or to serve others? I love how time and time again, God has placed people who will speak and discuss His truth in our lives to help us to grow. I felt myself being chirped by God bit by bit, but it's so amazing and joyful to just know that my Heavenly Father actually cared enough to correct me and love me enough to not want me to settle for less. This reminds me of the sermon John gave in India that says how often that we are just playing with sin. Trying to walk on the edge, thinking that we won't fall, but the more we do that, the more likely we are gonna sink in to it and didnt even realize that we are being eaten. I felt like I am living like that at the moment. Walking on edges, playing and fooling around. Why over time and time again I just rather give in to sin and forsake true joy to get temporary happiness. Just like in proverbs 26:11 the dog returns to it's vomit. I am like that dog. Oh wells. But recently, especially coming back from India, I just felt so loved by God, and the beautiful thing is, even when I know I have messed up and make mistakes, this grey peace and joy knowing that His mercy is greater than my mistakes and just felt so loved by Him. I was kinda worried that i will go back to bemuse able again. But no! Shall not take the lie that God wants me to be miserable. He doesn't. He doesn't want me to be miserable, He wants me to live like who I am, I am His princess, I don't have to live in shame and guilt anymore! I don't have to live sheepishly and Emo-ly. Pastor Brian says, he wants us to be happy. Well, not in the selfish way, but to experience true joy, everlasting joy. He wants that for us. :) how beautiful is that! I love to live like someone being loved and I am loved :) I was so energised this week and felt this peace and joy in my heart though I was still battling with some sin. I just realize it's possible to have that joy and peace in your heart that comes from God even when you are in this sinful body. Just looking back, from the spiritual high moment, to how I break the commitment, to now, just like what timon says, God has a plan for us. And that plan is to transform us into christ likeness. Whatever that happens is for that purpose and to fulfill that plan. How amazing is that! And reassuring to know that! :D I love how we are all sinners but are loved by Our loving Father. While reading acts, I just felt like its India. Haha! When Stephen was talking about the idols, I felt like it was me. Just cz God is not doing what they like, they just ignored the true God and go make some carved idols. How foolish is that! That's exactly how I am. Stephen's eyes are so fixated on Christ and eternity that the physical pain he is experiencing are just like mosquito bites. Was just talking to Anita about this while we are down the park. Because the pleasure of her company and the scenery outweighs the mosquito bite's irritation so much more, I would not just leave the place and fellowshipping just cz of that one bite. His joy and hope that he has outweighs the pain of his body to the point where he even when he breathe his last breath, asks God to forgive them. How amazing is that! After that, they talk about Saul's conversion. Saul's conversion is like an extremist turn to Christ. It's crazy when u think of it. And he just keeps on proclaiming the truth ever since! Furthermore, when he start becoming a Christian, just like what Joy shared his story, he was persecuted by his own friends. That really made me think of the friends I made. Why bother investing so much time and effort on pleasing friends that don't matter, why waste time? But invest your time on things that really matter such as eternity. That's the perspective christians have. Other than that, this Eunoch guy, it's amazing how God sent a prophet just for him in the dessert and he responded and get on fire for God. Just really brings out that parable of the lost sheep and lost coin. Even if it's just one. And that highlights what a privilege it is for us to be called children of God. We don't even realize that. Wow. Thank you God for who you are. Amen.
On a side note, I had a really great day yesterday with Rachael, we drank voss water rooibos tea and went perfume window shopping. I really enjoyed it and was just so glad to be able to get to know her better through perfume shopping. :) was just thinking, God delights in little moments like this too :)
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