A taste of spice :)

Interestingly this has been kept in my draft for more than a year~ hahahz! thought it's still interesting to post it out~ :)

wow.. been quite some time since I last posted something on my blog. :) Time flies doesn't it? :D but yet, sometimes we find that it moves sooo slowly.. guess this is what is said: seeing it from a different perspective (from wicked" lolz!!!) :P oh well.. this morning, I went for grocery shopping in Coles after work, and we push the trolley back after asking for a worker's permission. So happily, we bring all the things home. When we reached home, something happened. Haiz.. once again, got scolded by uncle.. it was really really discouraging this time.. as always, he wud brought up the issue of : you are a christian, but you are not thinking as one. He scolded me for bringing the trolley back to the hostel, and said that if others saw it, they will report to the police and got a few thousand fine.. and they will blacklist the hostel etc. and he started talking about people smuggling durgs into some country or stg and got caught.. oh well. that's not his main point anyway. But what hurts me most is everytime he started to scold me for the things I did, he wud start saying: u'r a christian.. I felt the strong burden everytime he said that, but of what my friend says, filter it out. As I guess, it's just normal for people to have expectations of a Christian, and that expectation is expecting us to be holy and flawless. and every opportunity to find our faults is a way to prove to themselves that Christianity is not worth it. Following Christ is not worth it, u see! that person claims to be a Christian but did all these things etc etc. I admit that Christians do make mistakes and sometimes like me, made terrible mistakes, but it's because of our nature, our sinful nature, that made us realize that we need our Saviour more.

Being Christian doesn't mean u'r perfect, but it means that we are just normal human beings like anyone else, who have come to know the truth and have been graciously given a new life by Christ. There are many holes and loops in this sharing that might cause misunderstanding, but I pray that God will open up the eyes of the heart of anyone who reads this sharing and of anyone who reads the poem below. This is who Christians really are. I am sorry for the mistakes that sometimes we Christians made that hurt you but I do hope that this doesn't stop you from knowing and experiencing the true joy in life and I challenge you that when u hate Christian, what are you really hating?

When I Say "I Am A Christian"...

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I am saved"
I'm whispering "I get lost!"
"That is why I chose this way."

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
my flaws are too visible
but God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
which is why I seek His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved.